Am i ready for a boyfriend? teenage girls please help?

ok so im 13 and today i went to the movies with my friend and her boyfriend and a few other ppl and my friends boyfriend brought his cousin and hes reallllyyy cute so we sat next to each other and he kept on trying to hold my hand but i kept it in a fist cuz it didnt feel right. then he started like trying to get into my palm with his fingers but i kept my fist really tight. it felt wrong cuz like i didnt want to be holding hands with a guy that i just met and plus i reeally like this other guy. he kept on making moves on me (like playing around, poking each other, hitting each other) and i just wanted him to stop but idk why :/ then he asked me if i've ever kissed anyone before and i said no and then i knew he wanted to kiss me but i didnt want to but then i did because hes really cute but i barley know him and really like this other guy and ugg... everything just felt uncomfortable and wrong. like i REALLY want a boyfriend but im scared that wen i do get one im gunna feel this way on dates and stuff. is this normal or will i outgrow it? plz help thnxx(: