Derealization or flirting with mental illness?

I have felt like this too. Just forget your past. I dont know if you believe what I'm going to tell: I read the Bible And I felt better. I dont go to the church, but reading the Bible, especially the 1st part of it can bring us back & help us. I had a brain surgery once and I was afraid of continuing the life. I thought it hadnt worked out. Now I feel just fine. Good luck! Dont need churches, just read...